I used to think that my life would never go back to what it used to be. I used to think that everything i've been dreaming of, the way i shaped my future, it was all gone. I used to think that no one is going to replace the ones i had. I used to thing that no place was like the place I was in. I used to think that nothing would ever be the same again.
But I was wrong..
I always kept questioning myself, whether i made the right decision to pause what i was doing for a while, and start fresh several months later. Although I believe Allah helped make everything go smooth and easy for me, I wasnt sure I was happy, or will change and be happy after it starts again.
Time proved me wrong..
I now truely believe that everything happens for a reason. We might not know it or realize it at the time it happens, or maybe never, but Allah shapes our lives in the most accurate measure of order. Thats how life moves on on this planet. What goes around comes around, and everyone gets what they deserve sooner or later.
I used to try hard to convince myself that life moves on and that we should moved on with it. Now, i'm moving on without really realizing it and I can barely catch up with all the progress. I feel much happier than I ever was. I am much more relaxed at what I do. The people around me are greater than I ever wished for il7emdilla, and I truely cherish them. I am finally getting to know the family that I was always far away from. I much more honest with myself. None of this would've happened if i hadnt made that decision. I might've never moved on at this pace or as fully as i have. I might've never got to know the truely amazing friends that I have. I might've never been as healthy as I am. I might've never had so much opportunities. I might've never been so close to my mum. And most importantly, I might've never been as happy.
I am finally ME. Not just the old me, but a better me. And I'm very glad and thankful for everything Allah has been granting me in the past year. Im looking forward for the bright future in front of me.